when i was a teenager, i used to say to myself that when the time comes i will have my own kids, i wont ever leave them. i grew up without my parents beside me… they were not there when i first learn to walk, when i first learn to utter simple words… they were far away, i was left with my grandparents and my tita ( for whom i thought was my real mom then).

but now, i understand why my mom left me… its not because she dont like me.. it is because she wants to give us a better future… coz now, even if it hurts so much, i am here, in a country where half of what they say , i still couldnt understand, left my daughter with my parents, just for the same reason…. TO GIVE HER A BETTER FUTURE.

now i finally understand what my mom went through… how hard it is for her when she missed all my school programs, when she was not there to teach me my school works, when i had my 1st menstruation…. coz now, i feel all the same.

to my daughter, Bney, i know you understand why i left you, just for a while, but i hope you wont hate me for doing it, simply because, i am not there… i love you so much and all i ever want is  to give you all the best in this world.

and to my dearest mom, i am sorry for all the complains and for not appreciating all you’ve done for me, for our family. and i know, until now, you’ll never get tired of giving all the best for us all.. and i thank you for that… i love you mom….

my daughter, Bney and my mom…